Friday, December 18, 2020

Something Unexpected (word to gordman's)

There was no way I could let 2020 go by without getting an annual post in. I actually completely forgot I have this blog, I'm incredibly happy I can see my random musings from the last 6 years of my life. Something unexpected is how much even the oldest posts inform who I am as a person today. My posts are a reminder that my values and the places I derive pleasure from have been consistent throughout my "adult" life thus far and I'm guessing they'll remain that way.

Something unexpected is how close I am to be done with school forever. I have one semester left of law school and I have the job I really wanted lined up waiting for me to cross the (likely virtual) graduation stage. I remember my first week of law school feeling like the longest week of my life. I remember my fifth week when my Civil Procedure professor said "we're a third of the way through the semester" and I thought to myself, "wow, alright, just have to do this 17 more times." 

This year has been a blur, completely unexpected. It's almost cliché at this point to even complain about the phrase "unprecedented times." It's funny how law school sets you up to know your future ridiculously early but the world can rip that right from you. I never thought I would spend any more than a few nights in my childhood bedroom after leaving for college, but now I'm on month 8.

I didn't expect to leave California so abruptly. I didn't expect the closest relationship I've ever had with somebody to end. I didn't expect to be so frightened for my future. 

But I didn't ever expect to feel so much love.

Moving back to Iowa has allowed me to reconnect with some of my oldest and best friends. I love seeing